A memory in silence.

This is something quite personal to me.
i'm writing it as a personal diary if u will.
why do we go on living and ignoring others.
perhaps its just me.
cuz i feel ignored all the time.
hadn't any real friend i could count on with my life.
i mean, like a real tight friend.
you know what i mean.
neither has my love life been succesfull.
i've never had a relationship before.
alright alright, i had once but i didn't really considered that relationship as it was ment to be looked at.
cuz we didn't really spent time together.
all we did was sms and occasional bumps cuz we went to tuition together.
but i only lasted like a couple of month.
we broke up right after raya, right after spm.
we didn't think we could work out.
so to speak i knew that would come.
with, parents like mine.
i have no freedom or feelings like an aveage teenager would have.
overprotective and unreasonable i would say.
they are extremely hesitant to let me out of the house.
resulting of me having a problem.
i couldn't reach out nor understand the outside world.
i don't know how to hang out.
in other words.
i'm a dork.
i envy those guys who have a real life.
me, i feel like i'm gonna live under my parents armpitts till i die.
they say family is everything and friends are nothing at all.
i disagree totally.
u need both of them.
like yin and yang.

girls.. a bother.. a poem..

so bothersome...

what a bother...

i don't have one...

none of em' wants or like me...

i guess..

so let it be...

a world of fantasies...

be in it i will...

with her who i'll never know and see...

finals, finals, finals..
man..
am i tired with it..
here i am in uitm, melaka studying for my diploma in mass comm currently in 1st semester..
now i'm having my finals and its almost the end of my 1st semester..
i just can't cope up with what i'm studying..
i'm bad at it..
that's why i'm scared of getting bad results this coming weeks of torture..
it's really a nightmare..
and the worst part is i ain't doing a thing to help myself out..
l.o.l.

It's a new beginning for me in this blogging world..
please give me teachings and advice please o.k.