A memory in silence.

This is something quite personal to me.
i'm writing it as a personal diary if u will.
why do we go on living and ignoring others.
perhaps its just me.
cuz i feel ignored all the time.
hadn't any real friend i could count on with my life.
i mean, like a real tight friend.
you know what i mean.
neither has my love life been succesfull.
i've never had a relationship before.
alright alright, i had once but i didn't really considered that relationship as it was ment to be looked at.
cuz we didn't really spent time together.
all we did was sms and occasional bumps cuz we went to tuition together.
but i only lasted like a couple of month.
we broke up right after raya, right after spm.
we didn't think we could work out.
so to speak i knew that would come.
with, parents like mine.
i have no freedom or feelings like an aveage teenager would have.
overprotective and unreasonable i would say.
they are extremely hesitant to let me out of the house.
resulting of me having a problem.
i couldn't reach out nor understand the outside world.
i don't know how to hang out.
in other words.
i'm a dork.
i envy those guys who have a real life.
me, i feel like i'm gonna live under my parents armpitts till i die.
they say family is everything and friends are nothing at all.
i disagree totally.
u need both of them.
like yin and yang.